*#@-*$%#@!! Everything feels like this >:l

the feeling when you're like stucked in a situation where in whatever you do, You just keep on losing..


Sometimes you just feel life is really unfair. that whatever you do, No matter how happy you are, there would be one thing that would come in random then everything would be over.. 


Everything's getting a bit depressing now.. aarrgh :l

きゃり ぱみゅ ぱみゅ

FAN GIRL MODE

I love you Kyary~! <3

2ne1 and Kyary Pamyu Pamyu

fangirl mode! :)

I super LOVE 2NE1 and Kyary Pamyu Pamyu~ :)

GOTHIC LOLITA WIGS :)

Hey Hey Hey, look what I got myself for my birthday! :)

CHOCO-LATTE BLENDED WIG SHORT VERSION

I ordered a Choco-latte blended wig from Gothic Lolita Wigs! It's color is a mixture of Dark and light browns. The wig is composed of a long curly/wavy base with two detachable ponytails. I chose this because I think it's great for everyday wear, also for lolita and gyaru look.

CURLY TIGHT PINK WIG

AND I'm gonna buy dolldelight's Pink Curly tight Gothic Lolita Wig, which she had already customized by teasing the tight curls. so It's a pink bob with two puffed ponytails. I think It's great for a fairy kei look since it's color is somewhat pastel-ish. With pastel medium sized and small sized ribbons, I think it's perfect! <3


I'm so excited for this, since I have long been wanting to wear Gothic Lolita Wigs for I've heard and read alot of great feedbacks. :)


DO YOU WANT A GOTHIC LOLITA WIG? Visit Gothic Lolita Wigs Site: CLICK HERE or their facebook page: CLICK HERE 


but if your living in the Philippines, Contact DOLLDELIGHT, she handles transactions for this account. :) 

PSEUDO RELATIONSHIP

Has anyone heard the term Pseudo relationship? Pseudo is a greek word which means, pretentious, false, fake. so, Pseudo Relationship is best described as a "relationship without commitment". it's "almost like a relationship, but not quite". Not quite in a sense that, You do almost everything a real couple do but there is no commitment involved. Just mutual understanding. It's just like friends with benefits..

Pseudo Relationship happens for different reasons, commonly, it's were every relationship starts. When you started as friends, you fell for each other, then there would come a time that both you, unconsciously, would start to be more comfortable with each other, that even without the courting stage or that verbal agreement that you already started your relationship, it's like your actions comes out naturally that when other people see you, they can't help but ask about your status. Then suddenly, you'll just smile, saying "Were just friends". Everything you do would not directly affect the other because eventhough you seem like lovers, you are not. In a way, you are still free. Having the chance to be with someone, be happy with someone, be sweet with someone, but at the end of the day, You would got yourself thinking, "Is he/she serious about me?" You are lucky if after investing real emotions over someone under a pseudo relationship, You both managed to go in a serious relationship.. BUT WHAT IF NOT?

Imagine yourself falling for someone whom you thought is serious when after you being faithful with him, not entetaining others, You'd just find out that he just treats you as his friend? That he is inlove with someone else? How could you be jealous when you don't have the right? That while you're so much attached with him, he suddenly gets cold? Well, You can't be that angry, after all, there is no "US" in this kind of relationship. It's just "YOU and ME".

Anyway, another reason for having this kind of relationship is after a break-up. You still both love each other.. You still both want to be with each other. But still, you broke up for a reason, and for that reason, It's too much complicated for you to get back together.. It's just really hard to let go of someone who had become a big part in your life. and for that reason, You can't manage to let go because of too much care and concern. But then, Having this kind of relationship means allowing ourselves to make the same mistakes that we did that lead us to that "break-up". The more you stay with it, the more you hurt yourself. It will just give you another false hope that you could still be happy with him, bring back all the memories, and eventually tries giving your relationship another chance, only to find out that he is in another pseudo relationship with someone else. and by that time, you were not anymore in the position to burst it. At the end of the day, everything gets more depressing. sad? but true.

Not all Pseudo relationship ends up in pain, But surely, you don't have any other choice, in the process, but to get hurt. So you must be good in concealing how you feel. After all, there is no such thing as a "Pseudo pain" only "real pain" under real emotions...

birthday wishlist Part 1

Yea, I can almost smell the scent of my birthday coming. HAHA :> I'm not that excited considering that I'd be a year older. :) naah, anyway, I've been browsing alot of really great stuffs on the net, the ones that I would really love to buy for my birthday.. Incase you guys don't know yet, my birthday is my most favorite day in a year. Why? Cause I got so much extra allowance. xD Than in Christmas.. haha. anyway.. For this year, I've been totally inclined with fashion. so mostly on my wishlist were fashion-related..


Okay, First, I want a new Fashion Lenses. I've already tried a purple-colored, Green-colored, and a grey-colored lenses. I want to try a blue, brown, or pink lens this time. though I also prefer having grey ones cause I think it fits me well. I just love how it naturally fits my eyes especially when I'm using a cam without flash. :) I want a big lens; about 14.8 mm to 16mm. Why? Cause with a great eye make up, it looks really really great.


Also, I want to buy a Blemish Balm Cream. I've seen alot of BB Cream these days but I haven't really tried it cause I still have my Make up base. But now that it's nearly empty then I believe buying one of these could not be classified as a impulsive buy :)


So , I have been searching alot on where to buy these first two online, then I stumbled upon Japanese Candy Online (http://japanesecandy.net) .. I fell super inlove with their package, If I buy a LIOELE BB CREAM, which is their best seller, I get the chance to pick a fashion lens, FOR FREE. So yes, I would definitely buy here. :)


I've searched alot of fashion items already. but I ought to finish this wishlist a week  before my birthday. :DD so I think this is it for now. :)

Remember my Punk Jumpskirt?

So well, I've used it in Toycon 2011. oh well, just decided to upload the pics :)

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Dream High Contest in facebook

I've joined a contest in a facebook page, Dream high shop, and after a month of gathering likes, Oh yea, i've won Second place.. the contest ended last May. But It's been one whole month and I haven't received any update from the page owners if they'd already sent in my  prize.. :( anyway, I've contacted the page owners just now for any news update, so maybe I'll just wait for it. :) 

Iyah Babe

My Goddaughter, Aaliyah, Iyah for short. :) She is my little model.. Dressing up is our favorite hobby :)

My big bow

&& i LOVE how my circle nerdy glasses (i bought in Greenhills Shopping Center) matches my big bow :)

Go Punk! :)

So yes, This is a sneak peak of what i'm gonna be wearing at the TOYCON 2011. I'm gonna be there on the 1st day, That's June 18. :) With my SOULSISTAH :) She's gonna be a on a sweet lolita outfit. :D Oh yea, this is too much exciting.. :) By the way, I was the one who made that Jumperskirt. :) and that Bigbow over my head too..

How to dress up like a Fairy Kei

1 - Colors. A basic Fairy Kei outfit uses a variety of pastel colors. However neon & darker colors can be incorporated in the outfit

2- Get a poofy skirt. Tutus & Petticoats are the popular choice but you don't have to wear only those options! Ruffly skirts, plain cutoff denim skirts, patterned or plain miniskirts, colorful shorts, gauzy skirts, lacy skirts, overalls, etc.

3- Add your 80's twist. Whether it be converse shoes, scrunchies, famous 80's characters like Care Bears or My Little Pony, fanny packs or even leggings. Always remember about adding an 80's twist.

4- Add cute accessories, but not too many decorative levels. Cute hairbow, cute hairclips in fun colors, thick headbands, skinny headbands, cool eighties caps, etc.

5- Style the hair. Hair can really be any style, but cutesy, childish hair is best. Maybe with a bow.

6- Use leggings, socks or tights: Opt for some bright colored legging, sock cute ankle socks or some simple colored tights. Maybe add small neutral color like black or white. Remember legwarmers? Those are an option too!

7- Add shoes. Converse are very popular in this style but there are many other option. Bright colored high top sneakers, dr maarteen, pop colored heels and even UGGs can work with this style!

8- Listen to music. The best part of Fairy Kei is the music. Popular choices are Riot Grrrl,Electroclash, 80's Pop icons such as Cindy Lauper, Madonna & Blondie just to name a few & off course Japan does have some underground bands & artist such as PEEP4U

9- Check 80's cartoons for ideas. 80's cartoons like strawberry shortcake, my little ponies, care bears, rainbow brite, barbie, the smurfs & Disney characters are very popular with fairy kei.

TIPS:

• You don't have to wear just DokiDoki or Spank! Thrift stores are your friends.
• Similar fashion style that might interest you are; Fairy Lolita, OTT Lolita, Decora & Neo Fairy Decora
• Popular Fairy Kei brands are Spank!, Nile Perch, Ticket to Darling Shop & Manasca Banana.
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• SOURCE: Wikihow: Be A Fairy Kei

Fairy Kei Love

This is my first and second fairy kei attempt. (Fairy kei is a street fashion from Japan. It can be described as kawaii style meets 80s pop.) The tutu skirts and the shoes were made by me. 

My first Gyaru attempt

Okay, So this was my first gyaru attempt. :) I did my hair similar to the one I saw in one Popteen Magazine, braids across the bangs. heavy eye make up, tsukematsuge (false eyelashes) and contact lenses topped my look. FOR MORE PICTURES, PLEASE Visit my facebook Page :) Jaeka dollie~*

Jaeka on Fashion

I started out simply as a fan of Fashion (Korean fashion, European Fashion and Japanese fashion) And well, It's just recently that I finally came to realize that I can make those fashion I love a reality within myself. xD 

On the first few months, I was contented with buying some cute/Lovely clothes and stuffs that inspires me, then mix and matching them to create a unique statement. But now, I can proudly say that I've finally got to learn how to sew my own dresses. It's really fun actually, cause I got to wear my clothes how I want them, cause I was the one who designed it. :D

Of those 3 fashions that I love, Korean and Japanese Fashion were my favorites, it inspired me alot. Sometimes I tend to mix these two.. :D

But Japanese Fashion was the one I enjoyed doing most, maybe because of the almost monthly or so ANIME CONVENTIONS, and I dunno, It's just virtually easy for me to think of lovely designs since Japanese fashion has so many brackets; lolita, fairy kei, gyaru, oshare kei, etc. and mixing these J-fashion cultures are the best challenge ever for me, :) Thinking that I won't look exaggerated and the mix of Jfashion brackets would look visually appealing.. :) 


<3

i love you raffa :(

been crying for about half an hour now for my dog, Raffa. Apparently, up to now, there's still some people who expects so much from a dog. DOGS CAN'T TALK. If they want to ask for anything, they bark, bark and bark. and sometimes, though how much we are attached to our dog, we just can't seem to understand what does that "bark" mean. So we don't know what to do... and unfortunately to SOME, that "bark" which the dogs use to express what they want/need, is just a big noise to their ears, over and over again. I pity those people who doesn't seem to understand it. >:l and because of those narrow-minded people, My dog has to be separated from me. D: We've been together for 2 years, and it's hard to let go.. But I've got no choice.. :(( Geez, this is too much depressing :((